I think back to those I once had,
The people I once knew,
I was there for them,
But I never got a second glance.

And I begin to wondr,
Are my friends really there for me?
Do they honestly care?
Do they even want me here?

I struggle with my thoughts,
They are my daily troubles,
I try to be everyones friend,
But I feel as if they do not want me.

I live in fear of annoying people
My insecurity controls me,
But my good mood is always there,
It’s there to hide my insecurity,
My lack of confidence.

I begin to wonder if you see right through me,
If you see the way I really am,
It seems so obvious to me,
So surely you must?

But then there’s the times when I’m fully content,
I feel confident and secure,
But it’s all taken away in an instant.

One wrong look,
One out of place comment,
I’m ruined,
Just like that.

Smile away,
Laugh it off,
But my heart is not smiling,
My soul is not laughing.

Is it really all a joke?
Or am I the joke?
Unwanted,
Unappreciated,
Unnoticed.

This seems to be the real me…